fear & faith...

What is it that you #fear today?
I’m #grateful today that instead of #drinking over things I fear, I #pray. 
I always prayed BUT thought I needed a #drink to wash it down🤦🏻‍♀️ Today, I let go and let God!! Thank #God today I KNOW there’s nothing going on in my #life that a drink won’t make worse. And for me, to drink is to #die

Is there something I can pray for you about? Let me know or message me if that’s more comfortable. I don’t know what the day may hold BUT I do know who holds the day❤️ I know He wants the best for us all. If He doesn’t want it for me, I sure don’t want it!! ⁣ ⁣



We must work on our recovery daily!
If we aren’t working on recovery we’re working on a relapse y’all!
It works if you work it! 
You’re worth it, so work it!!!


Are you grateful...

People that I meet think I am utterly #crazy when I tell them how #grateful I am for all the shit I went through. ⁠
It actually wasn't "that" much BUT to say I am #thankful I got a #dui and spent 6 days in #detox 90 days in a #rehab #alcohol #treatment facility is enough to leave people in awe thinking I’m #crazy. This is something you can’t explain to people who aren’t one of “us”. ⁠
...its clear, plain and simple...⁠
I won't forget that shit and FOR TODAY, it keeps me #sober. One day at a time!!⁠
I wake up every morning and thank #god for another day #sober and super excited to see what He has in store me for.....like a little kid on Christmas morning! I wake up full of anticipation!

If you have been through #hell and back and don’t see the light yet...stay tuned. I am here to testify that one day you will see the silver lining my friend... I didn’t think it would come but it did, much sooner than I ever imagine. Sometimes you have to go through hell to get to #Heaven


July 9...

just saw this saved and didn’t publish!!!

You never know what each new may bring in sobriety...

As I type this I’m sitting in the court room with a friend for support. The first time I’ve been in one where they said we could use our phones AND I HAVE NO DAMN SERVICE! 
That’s probably why they said we could lol However it’s the perfect opportunity to write and save this in my notes for later. 

My point I was making is that if you had told me this time last year that I would be accompanying a SOBER friend to court for support (and use the 2 words in the same sentence!) I would have said yea fuck that noise. (That’s how we alcoholics think...a friend that doesn’t drink...nahhhh) 
Of course I would always support and be there for anyone at anytime but shit just different today. I’m sober to be present. I am here for support. I’m not people pleasing. I’m doing my part of being responsible anytime anywhere anyone reaches out in this program. I have to have an open and willing hand to help my sober tribe! 

I’ve been here since 12:30pm and when I’m done here, I’m off to another court house to support another friend in the program. Hopefully I’ll make it by her time. 
As you can tell by my words, we may get sober but problems still linger from our past. 

Before you pick of that next drink, ask yourself if you’re willing to pay the consequences! If the answer if yes, well drink that shit up! No seriously, just say no ❤️