5.20.2020

romanticizing the drink...

𝕋𝕆ℕ𝕀𝔾ℍ𝕋  ð•†â„•  â„¤ð•†ð•†ð•„: The Dangers of Romancing the Drink 

This type of reminiscing is not a harmless activity. Most people in recovery will experience such memories now and again, but the problem occurs when such memories are indulged in. 

The individual may begin to ponder if things really were so bad when they were drinking or using. They may wonder if they are just depriving themselves of the one thing that brought their life pleasure.
Romancing the drink is usually one of the final stages in the relapse process

Here the individual has become stuck in recovery, and they are beginning to suffer as a result. The sober life begins to feel unsatisfactory. 

The individual now remembers how alcohol or drugs once allowed them to escape their problems. This type of thinking powers people out of recovery and back into substance abuse

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All welcome to attend: #sobercurious - hop in and listen! Want to be a #sobermom or #soberdad - come hear from others parents who have turned their lives around sharing their #experience #strength & #hope


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Thanks so much to all who have been joining & sharing ðŸ’•
Hope to see y'all tonight ðŸ˜‰
𝕄𝕦𝕔𝕙 ð•ƒð• ð•§ð•–,
𝔻𝕒𝕡𝕙😘

5.17.2020

surrender...


𝗦𝘂𝗿𝗿𝗲𝗻𝗱𝗲𝗿 is defined as 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨. When we think about this term in the context of active addiction, it’s clear that #addiction forces us to surrender; when addiction is severe, we #surrender our thoughts, our actions, our relationships, our personal fulfillment, our dreams and our successes. ⁣

A common thought is that addiction “hijacks” the brain – forcing us to surrender. When substances become so entrenched in our daily lives and in our mind, body and spirit that we no longer have control over our use, we’re essentially surrendering ourselves. We don’t recognize it at the time, but we are.⁣

If you’re #struggling to surrender, I am here to tell you (for me) it was the hardest & best moment all at the same time. My next step was #death ⁣

You don’t have to get to the bottom before you stop. Sometimes sadly the “bottom” ends 6 feet under. ⁣

I hope you all have a #blessed Sunday, stay #sober my #sobertribe ⁣




5.03.2020

closing IG for spiritual maintenance...


I can’t pour from an empty cup. For most people, this pandemic has left them bored, for me I have gone into overdrive. I must take a step back from the constant distractions so that spiritually I can refocus on me and work on me, my maintenance has started getting neglected- while hosting 9 zoom meetings a week, working with others remotely, trying to stay caught up on IG (which it impossible), sponsees, text messages, DMs, emails, a neglected website & YouTube channel, family, painting, exercise(ugh) …LIFE! {y’all see where this is going?} 

I am a real person, I admit that I get overwhelmed helping others each day, countless hours, in many different ways- trying to always be available but neglecting  “helping me”, putting everyone first. I always want to be there however when my anxiety kicks in, I know it’s time to take a step back and revaluate. Time to make new boundaries for myself. I don’t always have to be accessible and I am trying to take the advice I give to sponsees and those who ask! {took long enough!}  I’d rather do 2-3 things 110% not 1,287 half assed! Like with my drinking career, I was all or nothing and that’s how I am with my recovery & carrying the message. I will still be on the 9 meetings.  I however, will not be on IG. If you need passwords or info on them, please contact Brad. You can email me at nomowinodaph@gmail.com and I will get back “when I am able”. I am unplugging this phone from my ass for a week-stay sober my friends! Much love to you all!

9.10.2019

fear & faith...

What is it that you #fear today?
I’m #grateful today that instead of #drinking over things I fear, I #pray. 
I always prayed BUT thought I needed a #drink to wash it down🤦🏻‍♀️ Today, I let go and let God!! Thank #God today I KNOW there’s nothing going on in my #life that a drink won’t make worse. And for me, to drink is to #die

Is there something I can pray for you about? Let me know or message me if that’s more comfortable. I don’t know what the day may hold BUT I do know who holds the day❤️ I know He wants the best for us all. If He doesn’t want it for me, I sure don’t want it!! ⁣ ⁣

9.05.2019

SLIP

We must work on our recovery daily!
If we aren’t working on recovery we’re working on a relapse y’all!
It works if you work it! 
You’re worth it, so work it!!!

8.27.2019

Are you grateful...

ARE YOU GRATEFUL?⁠
People that I meet think I am utterly #crazy when I tell them how #grateful I am for all the shit I went through. ⁠
It actually wasn't "that" much BUT to say I am #thankful I got a #dui and spent 6 days in #detox 90 days in a #rehab #alcohol #treatment facility is enough to leave people in awe thinking I’m #crazy. This is something you can’t explain to people who aren’t one of “us”. ⁠
...its clear, plain and simple...⁠
I won't forget that shit and FOR TODAY, it keeps me #sober. One day at a time!!⁠
I wake up every morning and thank #god for another day #sober and super excited to see what He has in store me for.....like a little kid on Christmas morning! I wake up full of anticipation!


If you have been through #hell and back and don’t see the light yet...stay tuned. I am here to testify that one day you will see the silver lining my friend... I didn’t think it would come but it did, much sooner than I ever imagine. Sometimes you have to go through hell to get to #Heaven


8.26.2019

July 9...

just saw this saved and didn’t publish!!!
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You never know what each new may bring in sobriety...

As I type this I’m sitting in the court room with a friend for support. The first time I’ve been in one where they said we could use our phones AND I HAVE NO DAMN SERVICE! 
That’s probably why they said we could lol However it’s the perfect opportunity to write and save this in my notes for later. 

My point I was making is that if you had told me this time last year that I would be accompanying a SOBER friend to court for support (and use the 2 words in the same sentence!) I would have said yea fuck that noise. (That’s how we alcoholics think...a friend that doesn’t drink...nahhhh) 
Of course I would always support and be there for anyone at anytime but shit just different today. I’m sober to be present. I am here for support. I’m not people pleasing. I’m doing my part of being responsible anytime anywhere anyone reaches out in this program. I have to have an open and willing hand to help my sober tribe! 

I’ve been here since 12:30pm and when I’m done here, I’m off to another court house to support another friend in the program. Hopefully I’ll make it by her time. 
As you can tell by my words, we may get sober but problems still linger from our past. 

Before you pick of that next drink, ask yourself if you’re willing to pay the consequences! If the answer if yes, well drink that shit up! No seriously, just say no ❤️